_~.lonely penthouse fantasiez.~_

nekron @ 2009-12-29T20:58:00

2009-12-30T01:59:09Z

some people's self respect only begins when it has been generously afforded to them

young, dumb, full of dumb

2009-12-24T16:44:17Z

i realize, you fall off where you can't measure up; and that's been nearly every stride you took beside me

but i guess i should've known

2009-12-24T16:39:02Z

a cop-out, a lame-ass, a phony -- you deserve only the emptiness you exude

driving it deeper into me

2009-12-21T00:16:51Z

making things can be a mountain too high because i cant turn off my senses, so many ready to disapprove

loko loko

2009-12-19T22:09:08Z

"it's a shame how you bitch ass cowards wanna splurge accusations"

nekron @ 2009-12-19T16:59:00

2009-12-19T21:59:47Z

i told you, but you didnt understand it was true

nekron @ 2009-12-19T04:12:00

2009-12-19T09:12:40Z

your love aint worth my dime, ma

nekron @ 2009-12-18T04:45:00

2009-12-18T09:45:43Z

my emotional convictions are not marked by wisdom

nekron @ 2009-12-15T17:04:00

2009-12-15T22:04:53Z

maybe it's called "tricks in black"

nekron @ 2009-12-14T00:53:00

2009-12-14T05:53:13Z

skip to the end of each smile

Re: New Thread

2009-12-14T00:12:33Z

cuts on my finger tips bust with blood doing my push ups

it's on the walls

2009-12-13T23:52:37Z

candle light beat

at the intersection of boxcutter and your face

2009-12-13T22:49:39Z

tired of pretty people and their pretty places taking pictures of ugly people and their ugly lives for the mark of their own pretty culture and to falsely stimulate a human experience.

you might say sinful was an appropriate word, but you know i wouldnt

2009-12-12T09:17:59Z

the way you dispense with your principles just to cope with reality in the smallest way possible is pretty shameful

not to be mistaken for reflective rhetoric

2009-12-12T09:01:35Z

who's your vanguard now? where now is your breakwater? you can't help that sinking feeling of the second rate quality you try to make due with in your current climate. confused neophyte, recognize the amateur and the rare prowess.

simple power

2009-12-10T19:07:34Z

affectations in mysticism mean nothing but to the soft minded and susceptible

nekron @ 2009-12-05T15:15:00

2009-12-05T20:16:02Z

youre reading society of the spectacle on a kindle

curious to find out

2009-12-03T19:51:52Z

what happens when you send a suicide threat to the irs?

nekron @ 2009-12-03T14:40:00

2009-12-03T19:40:33Z

wendy rene's voice is all that there is

no longer a man

2009-12-03T19:24:58Z

I learned the truth at seventeen
That love was meant for beauty queens
And high school girls with clear skinned smiles
Who married young and then retired
The valentines I never knew
The Friday night charades of youth
Were spent on one more beautiful
At seventeen I learned the truth...

And those of us with ravaged faces
Lacking in the social graces
Desperately remained at home
Inventing lovers on the phone
Who called to say "come dance with me"
And murmured vague obscenities
It isn't all it seems at seventeen...

A brown eyed girl in hand me downs
Whose name I never could pronounce
Said: "Pity please the ones who serve
They only get what they deserve"
The rich relationed hometown queen
Marries into what she needs
With a guarantee of company
And haven for the elderly...

So remember those who win the game
Lose the love they sought to gain
In debentures of quality and dubious integrity
Their small-town eyes will gape at you
In dull surprise when payment due
Exceeds accounts received at seventeen...

To those of us who knew the pain
Of valentines that never came
And those whose names were never called
When choosing sides for basketball
It was long ago and far away
the world was younger than today
when dreams were all they gave for free
to ugly duckling girls like me...

We all play the game, and when we dare
We cheat ourselves at solitaire
Inventing lovers on the phone
Repenting other lives unknown
That call and say: "Come on, dance with me"
And murmur vague obscenities
At ugly girls like me, at seventeen...

what will i note while im dying

2009-12-03T11:28:28Z

the slice of indigo from behind the curtain, the falling moon through the slats in the blinds

nekron @ 2009-12-03T00:22:00

2009-12-03T05:22:53Z

handz (12:19:59 AM): oh shit
handz (12:20:16 AM): all shibbed out
handz (12:20:28 AM): n shib
handz (12:20:54 AM): youve gotta be shibbin me
shibdaha signed off at 12:21:23 AM.

open letter to god

2009-12-02T09:34:35Z

Give me time
To realise my crime
Let me love and steal
I have danced inside your eyes
How can I be real

Do you really want to hurt me
Do you really want to make me cry
Precious kisses
Words that burn me
Lovers never ask you why
In my heart the fires burning
Choose my colour
Find a star
Precious people always tell me
That's a step
A step too far

Do you really want to hurt me
Do you really want to make me cry
Do you really want to hurt me
Do you really want to make me cry

Words are few
I have spoken
I could waste a thousand years
Wrapped in sorrow
Words are token
Come inside and catch my tears
You've been talking but believe me
If its true
You do not know
This boy loves without a reason
I'm prepared to let you go

If it's love you want from me
Then take it away
Everything is not what you see
It's over today

Do you really want to hurt me
Do you really want to make me cry
Do you really want to hurt me
Do you really want to make me cry

nekron @ 2009-12-02T04:27:00

2009-12-02T09:27:42Z

im pretty sure listening to tina turner at 3 or 4 in a private setting didnt slow my sexual development

CONFESSIONS OF A SECOND-RATE SENSITIVE SAWNGWRITA

2009-12-02T00:27:13Z

oh baby aw baby, you know i was hurtin so bad
i was rollin in the street couldnt get back on muh feet
i was beat girl, so bad, there wasnt an ounce of love to be haaaaaad

i was down and out for the count you know, you know, girl
didnt even have a corner for me to curl up in, girl
i had it so bad, girl, you know a lonely lova is no way to be
i couldnt even see the light in me, ohhhhhhh the tears seemed to fall so easily

but then you came along, girl, you came on so strong girl ooooooooohhhhhhh
didnt have to ask you for nothin, woman, you pulled that barrel right my mouth, baby
before i could even look you in the eyes, girl, damn near fainted in your hands, girl
whoaaaaaaaaaaaa oaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaauhhhh

and now look what we got, wont give it a second thought, everything i sought
just when i thought the devil had bought my lot, look we we got, girl
aint shit gonna cave my world, long as you still love me, girlllllllllllllll
oh girlllllllll irlll irllll irlll ohhhh girllllllllllllll im stilllllllllllll
cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyinnnnnnnnnnnnnnn girrrrlllllllllllllllllllll you know i love you so bad
iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii iiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiii iiiiiiiiiii iiii cant stop lovinggggggggggggggg
it's too bad it's bad it's baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaa aaaadddd
you know it's super bad and i caint stop no no nonooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooo ooooo

_~*.*lonely penthouse fantasiez*.*~_